January 27, 2013
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a week on
So it’s been a week and a couple of days since finding about the cancer.
And I’m spent.
I have been extremely exhausted.
Dealing with work, sorting out my parents financials and their prospective wills (thats been an emotional rollercoaster in itself), being the spokesperson for our family for the hospital and trying to decipher the medical terms thrown at me on a daily basis,constantly dealing with visitors as they come in, doing household chores, my sister’s stupid antics and her emotional instability.But worse of all:never knowing what condition my mum will be in when I visit her at the hospital(I come everyday, usually after work and weekends I sit with her to keep her company).
There are days where she’s very happy, chatty and likes to participate in slanderous gossip (just like any Asian mother would) and then there are days that are like today…
Today her haemoglobin levels are bad, her blood pressure scarily low, she’s got a blood transfusion going and she’s extremely pale and tired.
She’s not receptive to her meds, some of it has been stopped, some reduced and well I dont know what else to say.Even though all I do is sit with her to keep her company, most days I come home extremely tired. I crash when I get home but then wake up in the middle of the night realizing the nightmare that our family are living through. So I get broken or little sleep. And then my day starts again…
